My instincts tells me that I am wrong but I always neglect it and do what I think is right.
Somethings are meant to follow your instincts so that it will turn out perfect but somethings are not.
Which now the problem I am facing seriously can't depend on my instinct as it will lead me to a neverland. I tried calling out to God but it really didn't help me by making the right decision. No matter what now, 1st priority is to call out to God and hope that he will help make the right decision.
I tend to be self-fish at times but always question myself this:
ISN'T EVERYBODY MEANT TO BE SELF-FISH? CAUSE NO ONE IS PERFECT.
But, too bad it don't turn out that way as I always get blamed. I also always think whether is my friend "kasihan-ing" me or not by telling people that she wants to teman me. Sometimes, i also think whether she just wants to have a short getaway but yet wants to go with him and i am just someone who bugest out of no where and distract them or some sort.
But why can't they tell me if they really want to go together? Is it that hard?
I know they just don't want to hurt me but then it will hurt even more when I find out the truth and that time everything they do is just unforgivable!
One LAST THING!
I AM NOT A LAMB!! I HAVE MY FEELINGS TOO!!!
I AM NOT A LAMB THEREFORE I WILL HAVE LIMITS!!
PLEASE DO NOT EXCEED IT ALTHOUGHT YOU MAY THINK IS NOTHING!
PLEASE DO NOT ABUSE IT WHEN YOU HAVE THE FREEDOM!
PLEASE DO NOT COME AND GO AS YOU LIKE .
WHEN YOU WANT TO LEAVE, PLEASE DO LEAVE AND DON'T COME BACK.
YOU ARE MAKING MY LIFE HORRIBLE ANS MISEARABLE!!
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!!