Seriously things are changing and we are way far apart.
This few days i didn't really enjoy school cause things just keep changing, friendship are getting far apart, backstabbing people, world of boredom and another thing is cause of the concert!
Let me list the down the things that has changed without her knowing and him knowing. I don't want to tell you they are cause i know they will know who they are and i am sure they will not feel bad after reading my post that i is posted up here so i guess i can start with my heavy heart now which is killing me deep down inside.
Okay, situations are now plainly getting worst and people are turning blind i guess. She and him are plainly acting stupid and thought that no one will know but too bad its just wayyyy obvious and she started change and she start backstabbing people to another girl. ( i dont mean to use the word backstabbing but its the only word i can use to describe.) We use to be twins we know each other alot althought we just met this year but when he came into the picture i already knew that things changed but she kept saying no but i do realise it cause its just right infront of me if i couldnt see it i guess i am blind and i am just acting stupid. I dont bother doing anything cause i know whatever i do is wrong at your point of view and you wont bother about what i say so i guess i better shut up and leave u alone i dont think i deserve to be your twin and stick with you anymore, i feel terrible and its slowly killing me. I got no one to pour all this out except my blog, i know you read it and u will get mad at me but its the only way i can get this out myself and realise that we are never meant to be together as a twin. I know i am a little harsh but i guess its the only way that i can leave you alone without me interrupting you and him and her so i guess i will be alone without sulking but enjoying my time in some other way. I know we have spent lots of time laughing for no reason and doing stupid stuff and thats the way we act but i guess now everything changed and all these will not happen again.
Okay lets forget about all the above and we shall talk about something else. Lets talk about the concert that is coming up! The concert its like just next week so everybody is busy practising. Our bhangra we have not been that serious in practising since a few days ago cause we know all the steps and we are confident enough to stand on stage and do it so lets do it people!! the scottish dance was nice very entertaining and other performances were nice too but i guess we shall wait till the cincert day and we will see full show!!!
I am going for the reunion on the 22nd but i guess it will be my last day of having stupid actions and laughing for no reason for the year. I guess today will be my last post talking about all these things and i hope i can put all these a side if i have the courage cause both are my friends which i cannot let down either one but i guess i will have too. Friends also have their boundries not just the lovey dovey thing so NATALIE stay positive and plan ahead and have fun!!!!
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