MY 2010!

Hello! Today i will summarise MY 2010 in one post for you!

Basically MY 2010! wasn't anything special but it was still something that I can look back at!

JAN

1st day of school and created my resolution for the year and my SO SORRY post!
read this for more info!
So sorry post!

FEB

It was the month that I prepared with a rush for a card for someone whom I will miss!

for more read person that I will miss!

MARCH

Its the month that I was having kinda confused, i think.
once again
* no pictures for this month!

APRIL

The hectic month! This month was full of school events, was rushing like hell for them all!
Fun and games day!
Just click on the link and there will be tones of pictures that will pop out!

MAY 

A month that was full of girls drama! I was practically in a cold war with my twin for nearly 2 weeks.
But now we are okay! we now look like this!
read this:decisions.

* I know i look horrible but who cares! as long as my twin looks awesome!

JUNE JULY

It was the month were I was just plainly updating as I need to keep this blog alive!
I was blogging crap all the time!
July was the month that i was rushing for auditions and all but we didn't succeed!
 read more: updates ,updates.

AUGUST

It was the month that I started posting up tutorials.
I also got into another web argument with another girl too, don't talk about that anymore it was hell!
And also the month that I made my first business sucessful online!

SEPTEMBER

It was a month where I discovered original music by youtubers were awesome!
This guy JianC made my day up till now with his song!
I also just realise that my blog were like dead in september because there was only ONE post!
hehehenananah!

OCTOBER

This month was a month that I made friends with some Japanese and also a month that I posted up a video that received some  complimentable comments.
More friends!
Hanie's birthday video!

NOVEMBER

WOAH! this month for me was the month that my parents and my sis say I got no life month!
I was basically video taping myself as I was doing 3 makeup tutorials!
This month also a month that I discovered myself that I was good in taking photos too!
redlips tutorial.

finally December!
It took me years to do this! I am so happy! it took me like 3 hours!

DECEMBER

This month is the month of the season! It was also the holidays month where everybody will celebrate Christmas with there love ones, including me! Its also the time where people rush to the shopping malls as MYES! was around the corner!
This month also a month that I made criticisms and also adverts la.
Ahhhh, besides also a month that I was going the most one la, cooking sessions and all.
*pics will be up soon, in progress editing.
laurierXsofy=NO MORE PAIN!
girls please use deodorant!
Cooking session.
Christmas 2010!

* best pic so far with her!

I love this pic as if makes me look as if I got sharper chin!

in conclusion,

I LOVE 2010 as it was awesome!

It was filled with pain, tears , happiness and all!

It was just a year full of everything!

MY 2010 will be one of the most memorable ones, i think.

I am looking forward to 2011!
I want to challenge myself more with more challenging things!
In a few more days 2010 will say byebye to us and 2011 will say hihi to us!
So lets cherished the last few days of 2010!

I want to thank all who have made my year 2010 awesome!

I also want to thank all those who I have made friends through online and offline.

Not to forget, to thank this awesome blog as it allows me to blog about everything on earth that I want!

byebye,

bubbly.

GIRLS, PLEASE USE DEODORANT.

Guys, this is something I think is useful. Please don't feel offended.

Okay, pass few days I was in the train standing next to this girl  and I smell some awful smell that made me feel like passing out. Then, it strike me that it was body odour.  At that moment, I was asking myself a few questions.
"Does she knows she has body odour?" and "She gotten used to the smell already?" and also " she walked out of the house and forgotten that she needs to roll on deodorant?"

I mean like how can she be so inconsiderate? People walk pass her and feel like passing out makes her feel better or what?  Its just so horrible.

Believe it or not, I am someone who also has body odour problem since young. You might be thinking now should you still be as close as ever to me. But.... please if you want to think twice before getting close to me then you are stupid and immature! Body odour is normal, everyone sweats, I just happen to be one of the unlucky one who sweats like a pig and more than usual, you think I want too? OF COURSE NOT if I were given a chance to choose.

I used to not care as I have already gotten used to the smell already until once my sister told me face to face
"YOU STINK! YOUR BODY ODOUR !"

Of course, eventually I started using deodorants. I have been experimenting tones of brands that works best for me. I have tried brands such as Rexona, Nivea , Watsons , body shop and simple. Now I can tell you which is like the best brand- SIMPLE I totally recommend. Ok, it maybe a lil' more pricey for a mass brand and compare to the brands that were mentioned above except Body shop.

NOW, I NEVER LEAVE MY ROOM WITHOUT APPLYING SIMPLE!
It unleashes my CONFIDENCE! I used to not dance with big actions and all out because of my body odour problem but now no more!

Back to the topic. I mean like if she could hold books titled something on medicine she should be smart la, studying medicine.I mean for goodness sake apply some deodorant or do something, please don't torture others. I meant I couldn't tell her straight forwardly that she has body odour plus I don't even know her makes it super uber weird la. I bet her friends also won't dare to tell her la ,if they did she would have roll on some already.

Sometimes, is just really difficult telling something so personal to someone , its gonna be super offended. A friend of mine has body odour and no one tells her about it as she might get offended so I tried to talk about something related by asking about the best anti-prespirant brand or what not but of course in the end she didn't get it.

In the end was just epic fail! She didn't get herself a deodorant. I guess that people needs to be embarrassed  once and for all before they learn their lesson.

Girls are suppose to look good and smell good as guys love to smell girls , rite? If a girl smells horrible ,sweats like a pig and have cold sweats all the time, it wouldn't matter if she is darn pretty , sexy or tall already the guy will just run! The guy or whoever won't come up to you and tell you " go put on deodorant before you come with me, if not you don't qualify." I mean this won't happen in billion years!

What I was trying to tell you guys are it doesn't matter if you have body odour or don't please still use a deodorant as it can help reduce sweats and sweats stains that appears on your shirts that make you look horrible!

You don't have to get expensive brands, just go to your nearest pharmacies to just get a cheap one and roll on , is just so simple! I highly recommend Simple! its highly inexpensive and effective! Trust me, you will improvements in yourself! So go get one for yourself! You will not regret!

Having body odour is not something to be ashamed off as it is a medical condition. So please make a change by treating it and not ignoring it. So please use deodorant. Use simple!

* I know I know, I am like typing super lots. Sorry!

byebye.

bubbly.

one step at a time.

I have been leaving my past all alone but somehow somethings have to be brought up once again.
I use to tell myself there is no point looking back as we can't change anything since is has been done but somethings just are unavoidable.
I am still walking back with some shattered pieces of memories and i look as if i am happy but I am actually not. I am depressed at times too not only you, i have been telling myself I have to forget about them and just keep moving as some things are predestined. I have a friend who are a little self-fish at times but accepted that fact as she is the closest to me . She is someone who moves on but she is somehow not too, i don't know why i feel annoyed but seriously its disturbing.
I can't say much as I have not really been through love and be loved all i can say is just take things one step at a time and I will always be with you when you need me and i hope i could create better memories for you and hope you forget about the bad ones. I know somethings are irreplaceable but ..............

yesterday is history today is mystery.

Sexual affairs at young age atting deadly serious!

Have been reading the newspapers these days and realise that news on sexual affairs at young age like from age 15 and up are getting deadly serious.
I guess we really need serious and efficient education on this matter. We do learn in schools but I don't think its working as the media and and some influences by the parents and some friends out there are educating the wrong information to the teenagers out there.

I myself as a teen , I personally think that education about this matter is so-so in our country. I can still stand strong spiritually as I have the help of the right people and GOD. Not that other religion or whatsoever has not educate their child but is just that their are being brought up by different ways and all, just that it! I also think that media  companies should be responsible on what they are airing because if they are airing the wrong information, we might just watch it and absorbed it without knowing. You can search on youtube, there are tons of ads on various items have ads with sexual appeals and all which is not encouranged by our parents, schools and others not to watch but is just impossible as we will be glue to a channel when we are watching somethin in particular as we don't want to miss a single bit of it!

Besides, I think that parents should help bring up their children in a safe-secure place and educate their child in a worthy and good manner on this issue too.

Newspapers does their part by giving us the latest updates by informing us on the latest numbers of sexual- addictors now and then , and also about the cause of  what you do if you are having sex and also the tricks that guys cheat on girls so that they can take advantage of them too but how much can they do? you tell me!

I really hope, that our government can make a change, and also our media, parents and some social welfare do something to make a change.

* will be posting up videos upon this matter
*will be looking up on news about this matter too.

*above are just my personal opinions no affliciates with anyone. If you feel offended please do not hestitate to conctact me!

Self-fish indeed.

Am I self-fish? I always questioned myself.
Yes indeed, i am.
proud to be a self-fish person.
No, not really!
First of all, I really dislike being blamed for everything,  kindness as well no exceptions!
what did I do? Tell me! I really hope to know!
Answer obvious but yet to be revealed.
Being flirtatious is good at times but not mean time.
Being kind all the time ,
will do you no good so be mean at times.
That's what i have archived in the past few months of experience.
Self fish works at times but not when your best friends needs love.
Twins are suppose to do everything together but not at mean time cause self fish kills one another.
Mean time, ignoring is good but in reality still have to face facts.
We have to face the reality because we cannot stay in the past forever.
Self-fishiness occurs when jealousy appears but not everyone realises that they are self-fish because it takes time to realise.

*its all true but its just personal opinions so please do not get offended.

Remembered Saturday- 24/4/2010

24th of April 2010 will be remembered.
That was the day i experienced talking to other people and met other friends and also saw some old ones.
The day before also made me saw what team work can do and it made me change my thoughts upon someone and that someone was used to be blur yet helpful and friendly althought not good looking. Now, he is made differently and made me think of him differently too.
That day was also a day that made me saw how the theme one Malaysia can be so important to Malaysia. It would surely make a change if we do put effort into it and I am sure we can.
That day was also a day that I saw different kind of people and faces.
It was also a day which was full of fun and tiredness but it was all worth it.
It was also a day which we realised that even a team that consist only 25-30 people can make a whole event sucessful and the event turned out to be awesome although it was our very first time doing it.
That day also made me realise that teamwork do make a difference compared to doing it alone.
Our Interact club is like a choir and an ensemble cause witthout team work the song will turn out horrible and awful but if you do it with teamwork it will be a great song like the ones played in MPO's.

All these memories will be remembered by me and will never be erased.

luv
Natalie.

The pain that a girl has to walk through.

Hello.
Every human being has to go through their own pain.
SO do girls!
As a girl, as a daughter as a friend  and as a student there are different kinds of pain to go through.
After writing this post, I will put up a sorry post once again to apologize to what i have done.
A girl have to go through pain such as emotional, friendship , studies and menstrual pains all the time.
As in emotional, we cry easily. Don't see some girls that who don't cry as strong, they are weak in the inside! They don't want to let others see them cry because they don't want to upset people.
Friendships is not as easy as you want them. They come to you cause God provided you with them! Friends are essential, without friends live is pointless! Do bare that in mind! Friends do everything, they do it and they say you copied them or what not they are still friends so forget about what they say and go ahead to talk to them once again.
Studies, is essential too. Its not easy to do it but if we strive for it you will get it! Scholarships are not as hard as you think , just do it because you don;t want to allow your parents to suffer anymore. Studies give stress but there's nothing we can do because as a student this is all we have to go through so just do it like the nike slogan.

-do understand a girl pain, walk through with them if you can if you can't pray for them and this is good enough!-
-Do show your love by talking and smiling at them!-

The worst day I ever had in my life!

Hello people!
Today I didn't attend school due to heat stroke.
Thanks to yesterday la thats why i got it and didn't attend school.
Okay la, not sooo bad as i thought cause i qualified!!
After 6 years in not running being an athlete , i qualified so i guess I am NOT BAD!!!
Now, I got body aches, headaches and muscles crams cause of the stupid sports selection yesterday at this so called mini stadium at taman sri permaisuri. It was hot like hell yesterday and wherever MARK house is placed we are forever being shined by the sun, poor mark house but then we will for sure this year!! So get going MARK HOUSE i will always support you!!!
So we departed from school at about 745 -800 and then we reached at 830 in da morning and then we started all the running, long jummpings and all and then we had our break. Jessie,Andrea and Me ate fried rice that was bought by Jessie which her mum made it early in the morning. Arigatou Gozaimasu Aunty and Jessie!!! It was so nice then we ate alot of stuff during break cause Charmange but who cares we get advantage of her mini fan!! Sugoi!!!
Then we headed back to school which we had out lunch extended till 150 then lessons goes on but we didn't bother at all then the interactors headed to WESLEY'S I.U. day. I followed Yao Hong's car there and tada we reached there at 345 and when we reached the interactors there came and greeted us and we headed into the hall. I met some friends there and my sisters friends after a few years. Their I.U. day was not so bad but it didn't meet up to my expectations so ya la. The picture below is the girfts and tickets when you get there and they give you:

tada!!

If you want to know more about the Wesley's I.U. day please come back .

Once again, the feeling of SUCKISH-ness is BACK!

What is suckish-ness?? No idea rite, so lemme tell you people what is suckish-ness.
SUCKISH-NESS is when you feel suckish but people around you doesn't know they only think that you are not the normal you maybe you are going through MENSTRUATION but its NOT!!! Only people who are not observant will realise!
 SO my friends defitenitely don't realise lah they think I am just sick and going through MENSTRUATION so they just left me alone and still treat me the way they normally do lah. Actually I am NOT going through MENSTRUATION or beacuse I am SICK but because of something else or maybe you can say because of SOMEONE once again!
Its not so painful anymore cause I have already been through this before but still come on lah, when you hurt someone it will never be nice rite and you also don't want people to hurt you also what so treat people as the way you want to be treated la! I am always being the nice one going through the whole process of Hi, so and so you are so ....... what did you do?? and then he will just be starring at her and start all the smiling and talk to her by ignoring me and start waving to her and even gave her choco la and I will be the one who gains nothing out of this and people treats me as the one who is always being in middle separating people up!What is this?? I can't be always fufilling what you want okay?? I am always a human being and  come on lah I am not a doll that you can say I am okay don't worry we are not going to be ................ we are just friends now since everything is in place  and blaaa blaaaa. and I will be the one who says "un, yes since now things are in place, we should just stay put and we are still friends rite?? " but she gets all happy over waving hands , smilling and when twitches his tougue at her and telling her that I .... you can we ....... and she gets hype up and she calls this a ......

I am still here la people!! Who do you think I am?? I really regreted on what I have done but too bad there's isn't any time machine that I can go B.E.S.T go back in time and all sorts or even saying DELIVERY HALFWAY LOST memories can't be flash back and sorts cause there's no such things on earth!!! I am trying to get over it but it doesn't seem like is working and I am trying ignore the fact that this is so gonna be back like the old story but its also not working so i guess I will just have to bare with this and PEOPLE IF YOU THINK YOU ARE HAPPIER TO PUT MORE SALT ON MY WOUND AND THAT WILL MAKE YOU SUPER HAPPY AND YOU WILL BE HYPE UP BY THAT THEN GO AHEAD, ALTHOUGH YOU ARE SOMEONE WHO IS LIKE IN MY BLOOD RELATION!!

Thats all I can say, if you think this offensive or whatsoever please DO NOT HESITATE to contact me and I WILL DEFITENITELY DO SOMETHING!!!
email: nataliecxc2210@gmail.com

The person that I will MISS!!

The person that I will miss, he will be leaving in no time.
He will be leaving tomorrow morning really early.
I will MISS HIM!!
He will be flying back to SYDNEY, Australia.
He is such a nice cousin , son , and nephew.
Althought he is older than me but HE still treats everyone the same way and he still treat me as who I am!
He is older but we don't feel the age gap at all!!

He brought back my new friend Aussie and Sydney

He is so kind.

I really will miss him, i don't know when I will see him again but atleast we still contact each other by emailing and fbook-ing.

He really has all the fashion sense too.

He also chose good plush toy for little children and he have a BIG APPETITE!!!!!

and I DIDN'T KNOW THAT!!!!

Here is a picture of him!!

He is my COUSIN

DARYL TAN!!!

Will miss him certainly!!!

The scrapbook of my JANUARY 2010...

Life is so easy as you think.......
Love isn't so romantic as you think......
Friendship isn't that happy after all......
Life isn't going to be what you want it to be......
Life can't go back to square one when you want because things that are done are done......
Can love belongs to you when you want it?
NO!



Is love just meant to be all about holding hands , hugs and kisses?
"Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.”
--Robert A. Heinlein

Is life going to be easy as you think?

Wars and elections are both too big and too small to matter in the long run. The daily work - that goes on, it adds up.
-Babara Kingsolver-



can life be just sitting under the tree without leaves and let time pass by? I hope i can!

I hope you don't ever treat me as a fool anymore because i know you love somebody more but i hope you can:
have a glance at me,
talk to me,
laugh with me
and
be with me as a friend if you can!



i will be seating here waiting for you to come and talk to me and laugh with me!

I know its crazy to love someone who hurts you but its crazier to love someone who loves you and hurt you at the same time! Cause life is just like that!



should i continue with tapping?? is it going to lead me to somewhere without you encouraging me?

things are changing , we are far apart!

Seriously things are changing and we are way far apart.
This few days i didn't really enjoy school cause things just keep changing, friendship are getting far apart, backstabbing people, world of boredom and another thing is cause of the concert!
Let me list the down the things that has changed without her knowing and him knowing. I don't want to tell you they are cause i know they will know who they are and i am sure they will not feel bad after reading my post that i is posted up here so i guess i can start with my heavy heart now which is killing me deep down inside.
Okay, situations are now plainly getting worst and people are turning blind i guess. She and him are plainly acting stupid and thought that no one will know but too bad its just wayyyy obvious and she started change and she start backstabbing people to another girl. ( i dont mean to use the word backstabbing but its the only word i can use to describe.) We use to be twins we know each other alot althought we just met this year but when he came into the picture i already knew that things changed but she kept saying no but i do realise it cause its just right infront of me if i couldnt see it i guess i am blind and i am just acting stupid. I dont bother doing anything cause i know whatever i do is wrong at your point of view and you wont bother about what i say so i guess i better shut up and leave u alone i dont think i deserve to be your twin and stick with you anymore, i feel terrible and its slowly killing me. I got no one to pour all this out except my blog, i know you read it and u will get mad at me but its the only way i can get this out myself and realise that we are never meant to be together as a twin. I know i am a little harsh but i guess its the only way that i can leave you alone without me interrupting you and him and her so i guess i will be alone without sulking but enjoying my time in some other way. I know we have spent lots of time laughing for no reason and doing stupid stuff and thats the way we act but i guess now everything changed and all these will not happen again.
Okay lets forget about all the above and we shall talk about something else. Lets talk about the concert that is coming up! The concert its like just next week so everybody is busy practising. Our bhangra we have not been that serious in practising since a few days ago cause we know all the steps and we are confident enough to stand on stage and do it so lets do it people!! the scottish dance was nice very entertaining and other performances were nice too but i guess we shall wait till the cincert day and we will see full show!!!

I am going for the reunion on the 22nd but i guess it will be my last day of having stupid actions and laughing for no reason for the year. I guess today will be my last post talking about all these things and i hope i can put all these a side if i have the courage cause both are my friends which i cannot let down either one but i guess i will have too. Friends also have their boundries not just the lovey dovey thing so NATALIE stay positive and plan ahead and have fun!!!!

Hey peeps!!

Hey peeps! I am finally back after so long!! What have i been up too? thats what people always ask me these days because i have not been blogging for quite a while!!=)

I have been editing photos doing some of my portfolios , practising my tap dance moves because i will have a tap exam on the 29th of October and studying for the FINALS!!! and its from 20th-27 of October! and also planning on my birthday, what shall i do?? I cant celebrate my birhtday on the actual day due to the finals but i will celebrate it with hanie and jessie after the finals and of course with my two besties as well and that is SUYESHA and CARMEN =) <3 luv them lots!!!

And now i will have to stuck and cram all of the information from the book to my brain!! Arghhhhhh!!! And now Peter came out with a brilliant idea and that is having special remedial class on the holidays if the teacher thinks u are weak and if u fail a subject how stupid!! And i wont forget to wish the PMR and the form 4 students good luck!! and also the top3 ASQ winners who is gonna represent our country in the TVB8 international singing competition in Hong Kong tonight(11/10/2009)!! GO KAH FAI!!!! Gambateh!!!!

And also wishing everyone the best of luck in everything!!! and i made a little bookmark for fat so hopes the fat likes it and now i am starting to get pissed off with the lost sheep who doesnt wants to come bac to the barn but stucking with the little princess all the time!!! not that i like the lost sheep but if the lost sheep still stuck with the little princess it will for sure get in trouble!!!

*WARNING!!!! lost sheep get back in to the barn!!!

I am still an idiot!

Okay, after a few days of thinking about everything that has been done, i think i am still an idiot. I don't know why but i feel weird cause things around me are changing or rather moving really fast than normal, too me! I don't know why i tend to avoid certain topics when people starts talking about crushes, liking and even more i would just walk away or even talk about something else. I just love or like to browse thru shemale or i dont know's facebook cause i just tend to do it and i act weird really weird. My feelings are really confusing nowadays and after reading his msn messagers i tend think about it or i feel really curious after reading them but i tried to tell myself not to think about it cause friends around me are telling me not to fall into this but its feelings i cant really do a thing about it rite? so i think i am still an idiot and i have not realise anything about this yet , i guess.

-love ya-
-nat-

I am an idiot!

As some may have notice that i am now always getting pissed very easily and blushing really often these days especially those who are really close to me or my blog readers and my plurkers. I don't like to share my feelings on facebook cause i just don't like too , i feel wrong after posting there somehow.

I just love too write down or spill my feelings out of myself here cause i think or i may feel this blog is a part of my life now so i just love to write it down or note it down here.

These days, i love too say these few words if you do realise
"i don't know la!"
"Don't ask me!"
"yea, right!"
"I am gonna break down in a while."

These few words i uses it really often. I use it cause not that i dont know the answer or i am stress out but i just have no idea where my fellings or where i should place myself today or right now or even i was just flustered or perplexed or indignant or SOMETHING. I was just confused. When I talked to people, I just kept saying I don't know over and over again.

Now, i could place myself here is because i think this is the right time to just not this down that i am an idiot or maybe cause he just doesnt know i am having a blog or even he is now busy or he doesnt sign in or log on to the computer.

Two to three weeks ago, i did something really stupid and unexpectedly but i am not gonna say it here cause its stupid. And we were just mutual friends or even a s and j relationship or even just a school mate. I seriously didnt expect myself to be an idiot seriously idiotic idiot.

Anyway,

It took me a while to digest what people had commented about or i can say i took me a while to find a name to name this as now i found i would call this "HAPPYDY-SADNESS" Okay i know this sound really really wrong but this is the only word i can find now, at least so!

When u see a guy , as a girl u oftenly smile and walk down the street happily or u can act shy and walk off. Thats what girls normally do.

But, i have never known that feelings before can ended up being so confused . Like a LAMB. LAMB! you know what is LAMB??

Today, there's something happen but i don't know what is it like to explain it but i guess its just some kind of feelings. If you wanna know more jjust drop by here more often or even msn with me or even email me! if my email doesnt hate you! HAHA!!

bye!!