What really matters

Hi guys, this post will be something diffrent from what you have always seen from my other posts. This post is something about how I can live my life without questioning myself but still living each and every other day of mine as happy as ever with my friends and family.

There is something that I would like to share before talking about how I can live my life as happy as ever.
I remember in standard 6 to form 2 or even until now there is some people talking bad about me like my friends , best friends , family or even strangers. I felt so bad so i tried to prove them wrong and do everything so that i can please them and all but I realise I wasn't happy at all. In standard 6, I used to have 3 best friends and out of a sudden I just lost all 3 of them and everything of mine came into a stage that I was flashing back on what i have done to make me lose them and I just couldn't get the answer but I was happy cause at least there is someone who helped me throughout that period and that was PEICHING!! She was such a nice girl and she taught me how to pray to god althought I go to church. She and her family prayed for me and thank god that now everything came to and happy ending althought I don't contact them but I know that if I continue to look for an answer this won't help but it wound just make the wound worst. Thank god that he helped me to put this case to an end. When i was in F1 and F2 people just hated me cause I was being a "teachers pet" but I know i am doing the rite thing and this what a obedient student have to do and i never regreted after doing it.

So, the whole thing is about how people hated me, backstab me and how i lost my friends but I didn't regret what I have done because I have 3 best friends that helped me and brought me to a point that now where I, Natalie should be.

There is a few things I have learnt through this period and that is do not question yourself after what you have done and do let go your anger and your feelings when you have too , or even talk to the counsellor or the briefrenders team if you have too. Besides that, I also learnt how to think about other people more than myself and build a stronger inner life through the lifetime obstacles and look forward and don't ever look back at what you have done. Another thing is believe in yourself that you are stronger than you think you are and god is always with you!!

Besides, we are only humans nobody will know what will happen tommorrow or even in our future so don't look back and just look forward! put this in mind!! I also believe than love can be seen by the blind, can also be heard by the deaf and be spreaded by the mute.

So, start to love, live and appreciate everything, every place and everyone  START LIVING!!

The person that I will MISS!!

The person that I will miss, he will be leaving in no time.
He will be leaving tomorrow morning really early.
I will MISS HIM!!
He will be flying back to SYDNEY, Australia.
He is such a nice cousin , son , and nephew.
Althought he is older than me but HE still treats everyone the same way and he still treat me as who I am!
He is older but we don't feel the age gap at all!!

He brought back my new friend Aussie and Sydney

He is so kind.

I really will miss him, i don't know when I will see him again but atleast we still contact each other by emailing and fbook-ing.

He really has all the fashion sense too.

He also chose good plush toy for little children and he have a BIG APPETITE!!!!!

and I DIDN'T KNOW THAT!!!!

Here is a picture of him!!

He is my COUSIN

DARYL TAN!!!

Will miss him certainly!!!

Movie review Chinese Movie- 72家租客

Today my family and I went to KLCC and watch 72 tenants of prosperity. It was really funneh, like really funneh!! It has over 100 actors and actresses in the movie. It wasn't that bad after all, its a movie that can give you unlimited laughter and a time to bond with your family after watching the movie. We were talking about the movie after watching it cause it was just really funneh!

I was laughing like there wasn't tomorrow but it wasn't that good in the language part because the language is really crook and all if you're below 13 please seek for parental guidance while watching the movie. The parts of the movie is really great it does relate to the past and the before. I also tried looking for the older version of the show but it isn't call “租客”but "房客" but it does has a little relation.

The director of the movie is Eric Tsang and its really great he did it really well. The actor and actresses did their part thats why the movie turns out so great.

I will rate this movie 8.5 out of 10. I know it can be better. So do watch it and also try watching our Malaysia's own CNY movie " Tiger WooHoo" its really funneh too. It is acted by our own radio DJ's from MY FM and Astro AEC's hosts. It is not so bad I will rate it 8 out of 10.

Xiaxue's guide to life.

Hey peeps, a week ago I went to this blogger's blog

http://xiaxue.blogspot.com

Its's so freaking funneh and I think is comparible to  Dawn Yang's one but I think both is kinda equally good la. NO OFFENCE to Dawn Yang la.

http://clapbangkiss.xanga.com

I went to Xiaxue's blog and I found her vid's on clicknetwork.tv and its really funny. Its like a reality show perform by this funny women but then beware there is some bad words in it. So, if you are 13 and below please seek parental guidance before watching it.

http://www.clicknetwork.tv

and then you click the scroll bar and move it down and you will see this " Xiaxue's guide to life" and you can watch all the episodes or not you can press the key on your keyboard"pg down or Page Dn" and then do the same thing  then all the episodes will just appear infront of you!! ^^

So, here it is. Its what i am recommending you to watch. So do watch it!

2nd day of CNY.

2nd day of CNY was exhausting and dreadful but was kinda fun la not so bad.
All my relatives were at my place and because of DARYL we ordered YONG TAU FOO and PIZZA.
The food was delicious .Ymmmm.....
We played cards and chit-chat so we can catch up with Daryl.
I even got my new friend all the way from Sydney , Australia!! THX DARYL!! ^^

My new friend from Sydney

Aussie and the brother Sydney

I got a picture with my new friend too^^

I know i look weird but Aussie and Sydney is still so cute rite??

See so cute rite my new friend.

At night , we also went to Aunt Helen's place for dinner until 11pm and we finally got home and i started to "photoshop" Daryl's card until 1o'clock and it looks like this:

This is what i did for Daryl in return for the KOALA. I know it looks suckish but its okay I guess as long as the thought counts.

So here it is . I don't have any pictures for the day on WNW because people were at my place so there is no outfit of the day.

My portfolio's

Today will be the day that i share my artworks with you guys. I know it looks extremely stupid but for a beginner like me i think is pretty nice^^.

This is call - more than abstract.
its with the electrical lines , clouds, so called moon effect , water splashing effect and abstract paint.

This is way more simpler- the splatter with skyline
its splatter paints ,with city skyline and bokeh light effect.

So there it is, i know it looks stupid and sounds stupid too but i think its not too bad after all, haha^^!!

In the next post i will reveal my new friends to you and my CNY day 2 to you guys. So come back for more=)

-luv Nat.-

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Happy Lunar New Year!!

Today is the 1st day of the LUNAR NEW YEAR!

What did you do today?

Me?

*HOUSE VISITNG!!!

it was really DREADFUL!!

Went from Puchong to Puchong then HOME!!

Took an hour drive back from Puchong then I hurriendly got showered and then TV SHOW!!!

While watching i ate a bowl of

SPICY RAMEN!!

Then posted a look on LOOKBOOK

This is what i wore for the day.

Then after that, i played with the comp till 1 o'clock while "photoshopping my ideas and photos"

and also doing somethings for my cousin who will be leaving back to SYDNEY after this CNY!!

will be back real soon stay tuned! =)

Is it possible?- decision

Is it possible for something to happen if there's no connection? of course not!!
I have been packed up with alot of decisions to make at this point but i know what I want and need to there's no need to worry about it so no need bye bye worries, haha , lame!!^^
I often have this feeling in me that I will die if I don't do this now!! I feel there's people talking bad at me but who cares, i couldn't care less la its like not my problem if they talk because is their mouth they can say whatever they want its pointless to tell them so leave it alone its not like it bothers me.
The decision that i have made was a little unsatisfactory for the ones who care for me as well as myself so i decided to make a resolution as you will see it a little later cause i am still planning on it=)
I decided to change the most inportant thing of my life to set it a side as so i call it the side dishes where i put my main course as something else which is more important to me at this moment of time but i swear this will change after a certain period.

SO LATER ON YOU WILL SEE THIS IMAGE BELOW AND ITS MY RESOLUTION!!!!

The scrapbook of my JANUARY 2010...

Life is so easy as you think.......
Love isn't so romantic as you think......
Friendship isn't that happy after all......
Life isn't going to be what you want it to be......
Life can't go back to square one when you want because things that are done are done......
Can love belongs to you when you want it?
NO!



Is love just meant to be all about holding hands , hugs and kisses?
"Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.”
--Robert A. Heinlein

Is life going to be easy as you think?

Wars and elections are both too big and too small to matter in the long run. The daily work - that goes on, it adds up.
-Babara Kingsolver-



can life be just sitting under the tree without leaves and let time pass by? I hope i can!

I hope you don't ever treat me as a fool anymore because i know you love somebody more but i hope you can:
have a glance at me,
talk to me,
laugh with me
and
be with me as a friend if you can!



i will be seating here waiting for you to come and talk to me and laugh with me!

I know its crazy to love someone who hurts you but its crazier to love someone who loves you and hurt you at the same time! Cause life is just like that!



should i continue with tapping?? is it going to lead me to somewhere without you encouraging me?

I am an idoit post #2!

ｶﾁｼﾁﾆﾓﾁ!!
finally back from a week of torcher and sadness. This week was such a tiring week for me. I was really touched by somethings that happen through out this week but somethings that some people had done to me was really hurtful. I don't want to mention who hurted me but is really something that upset my whole week but there was things that were really happy to me. I was laughing through out my recess and lunch breaks and also my mornings in school and i knew i got into interact club and all sort was really a great thing for me. The sad part was something happen and that person didn't even mention it about but he was still treating me as a great friend and an idiot like as if i don't know anything, i know he don't mean it but is really hurtful when i realised it and when i knew it was already something happening and he still treat me as a full as if i am an idiot! I am such an idiot until i can wish him good luck in that particular situation. I know he don't mean it but i really have some special thing for ahem but erm forget it is not what a girl like me wants and i am sure god will have the best plan for me so i guess i shall just follow what god wants me to do!

Natalie with her SO SORRY post!

So here i am again! Today i will be doing a SO SORRY post which i think that particular person who posted something at my shout box should come and read and be happy for what i have done here!

I am really sorry for posting my own photos here if you think i am ugly and the picture of me will spoil your day and make you have an eye pain i am SO SORRY!

I am also really SORRY if my pictures and my posts make you feel terrible or even speechless than i am SORRY once again!

I am also so SORRY that someone made you make your mind to visit my blog and made you feel horrible after that , I AM SO SORRY!

* actually if you are the one who posted at my shout mix box, please do tell me cause i don't mind knowing and I am kinda sure who you are , don't make me make a final decision to tell the whole world who you are! You are verbal bullying here, and i am quite sure that you know this is my blog i can post whatever want here so don't do stupid stuff! Please !!

* I am actually not really sorry for what i have just apologies here but I just wanna tell that person that he or she can say anything to hurt me but GOD or my siblings or even my family members can hurt but not YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HANS HAZAIRI!!

YOU ARE OFFICIALLY 15!! I am youger cause i am

only 14 years and 10 months!! You are aging and i am not haha!!

Anyway, thanks for helping me last time and thanks for being kind to everybody!!!

Keep on your good work!!!

The day that changed me.

I have been not posting for a while, I am really sorry!!! I was thinking whether to continue blogging or not for some reasons but i came back with a confirmed answer and that is a YES!!
I have been doing loads of things and i am trying to finish the things that i stacked up as soon as possible. I am also trying ti study at the same time to get good grades and as well as my dancing. so people pray hard for me!!!

The day that changed me was after reading a story called " SHAME". I began to change myself and help those who needs me and not so prvilledge people and i kept teling myself to change cause i am so lucky, i am luckier than others! Dont be so fuzzy over stuff and dont be so demanding NATALIE!! You need to change! So, i am determined to change !

The dreams of 2010!

Hey!! I havent been blogging for a few days and my friends and relatives are kinda making noise ady so i might as well blog since i didnt blog since 2010 started! So, i guess this will be a post concern about my first 3 days of school and what are my dreams and hopes for this year!

So, the first day of school I lefted home as usual like 630 in d morning and i reached school at 705 so its still okay not so bad. I was kinda lost at first althought it wasn't my 1st time stepping into the school but without my friends to guide me along the way i really felt very lost so after a 5 minutes wait Jessie came!!! I was thanking got like there wasnt tomorrow!!! Haha!! After that, we went to the auditorium and then wait to get seperated from our friends if you are unlucky, if you are lucky you will be with your friends and i was unlucky so got SEPARATED!! I was l like "damn it" !! why me and not others??? Cause, i was praying to god ,so my name won't be called to be in 3S but to bad, the 3rd name was mine!!

Guess who is the class teacher?? Don't know?? let me tell you! Ms.Chuah!!! Asst. Class teacher-the form supervisor Miss Mala!!! I no likey!! So, my subject teachers i don't really mind except for my math , english , KH Geografi and Moral teacher!! I really no likey MAN!!! I am bored to death in class without my friends but we can still meet each other la, ATLEAST!!! I am like partially dead when i am in class, when i get out of class, THANK GOD , I am not dead yet!!!

So, now lets talk about CO-CO!! Now we have 10 periods of studies and co-co is separated into 3 periods which we partially have no time for anything so , no likey too!! I am forced to be in science and math club which i dont like and I am in KRS which i am separated from JEssie, MY TWIN!!! Games still together la except SUYESHA!!! she is with GABY and ClAIRE!!! So, good luck to her in badminton!!!

So, now i am kinda not active in class la cause no one to talk too not dont have not so close!! the closes is ANDREA LEE!!! but she sit far away so cannot talk but i think its a good thing cause i can focus more instead of anything else so its a good thing i think!!

I think i had enough here so will be coming again!!

Welcome 2010 and bye bye 2009!!

さよなら。2009 いらしゃいます 2010!!
So, I there's only a few more days to school reopens and I have not really done any preperations yet till now! I am really lazy so i kept on saying " leave it there , there will be plenty of time" and stuff like that until now nothing really came out so its time to get started i guess!!

So , how did i spent my new years eve?? Nothing much No big deal!! Didn't go out for dinner , no parties no nothing so basically i have been eating at home, wathcing tv at home, playing the computer and those basic things that a teenage girl will do and also DAY DREAMING!!!

I have been really into the hiragana and the katakana's or rather more to the hiragana and also photoshop CS3! I know i am outdated people now using photoshop CS4 but what to do i am outdated no cash no new stuff that's all i guess!!!

So , 2nite is New Year so i will be going for a korean BBQ dinner at Ampang Waterfront not something grand but i think its great to eat with family and some friends =)! So pictures will be updated some other time!

Sayonara peeps!!

My wishes to all on the last day of the year!

I am so sorry for not being an active blogger and plurker and twitter. I have been doing a lot of stuff this year that brings my life up and down like a roller coaster. So i am really sorry for what i've done! Below will be my final post of the year and my speech to all for what i 've just done during the whole year.

I am really sorry for not being someone who you guys want me to be!

-I am also really sorry for the things below that i have done

* Not being a good daughther which i am suppose to be

* Not being a good sister

* Not being a good friend that you want me to be

*I am sorry if I make you hate me

* I am sorry if i didnt forgive what you have done to me

* I am sorry if I was being a nuiscance

*I am sorry if i were being a backstabber , idiot and even more.

I don't know what to say anymore because i guess with my memory failing I can't remember anything more but if you remember what i did to you please forgive me and i am really sorry!!!

I can't really say 2009 is a really good year for me but I hope that 2010 will top 2009! Some people say that 2009 is awesome but to me is a year of roller coaster but I can't deny that 2009 actually top 2008 because in the year of 2008 alot of things happen and things changed and people are diffrent soI guess this is what I have to say and I wish everybody HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!あけましておめでとうございます

2009 coming to and end!!

2009 IS ALMOST OVER, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?

Stayed single for almost a whole year?
yeah!! kinda proud of it!! haha!

were involved in something that you will never forget?
i think soo, i couldn't remeber!

tripped over a coffee table?
nope, but some other things yes!

Dyed your hair?
nope, i wish i could!!

came close to losing your life?
uhhhh-NOPE!!

Saw one of your favourite artist or band live?
YES!!! 4 times!!!

2009: friends and enemies

did you meet any new friends this year??
hell yes!!

did you hate anyone??
Yeap, i think.

Do you have any regrets in your friendship?
Yes, sadly!

2009: Your birthday!

Did you have a cake?
Nope! i don't mine!!! I want ice cream more!!

Did you have a party?
Ummm, someway with my frens?

Did you get any presents?
Yeah!

2009: All about you

Did you change this year?
Yeap, alot!!

Did you change your style?
A little! =)

were you in school?
duh!!!

Did you get good grades?
Not really ! sadly i think its a NO!!

Did you have a job?
Nope, still a student!

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not that i remeber.

Did you go on any vacations?
Yup!

Would you change anything about yrself now?
I would do it if i could!

IN THE YEAR OF 2009 I CONFESS THAT I:

Kissed in the snow?
nope!

Had your heart broken?
Nope!

Done something you've regretted?
YES!!! Absolutely!

Painted a picture?
Yes!!

wrote a poem?
Nope!

Ran a mile?
i walked a mile!! i hate running!!

cut in a line of waiting people?
Yes!

Told someone you are busy when you weren't?
Yes!!

cooked a disasterouse meal?
Yes!

Lied about how old you were?
yes!!

IN 2009, I ....

Broke a promise?
I try not too

Dissapointed someone close?
Yes i think!

Hid a secret?
Yes!

Pretended to be happy?
Yes!

Slept under the stars?
No, i wish too!

Kept your new years resolutions?
forgot about it

Forgot your new years resolutions?
yes!! i just said it!

Met someone who changed your life?
Yeaps!!

change your outlook of life?
idts.

Sat at home doing nothing?
idts since computer is something?

pretended to be sick?
yeah! i sucedded!

lots something expensive?
nope!

learned something new about yourself?
idts.

tried something you normally would try and like it?
yeah!!

Made a change in your life?
uh-uh!

FOund out who your true friends were?
yes of course!!

Met great people?
Yesh!!

stayed up till sunrise?
nope!

cried over the silliest thing?
nope! idts.

had friends who were drifting away from you?
no!!

had a high cell phone bill?
yeah!

spent most of your money on food??
nope mostly on stuff

gotten sick?
yesh!

loved more than 12 people in the same time?
not in "that" way

2009 WRAP UP:

was 2009 a good year?
mmhmm, maybe

DO you think 2010 will top 2009?
Maybe and i hope!

Tag 10 people after you done this tag!!
people who has been tag :

-Mei Gan

-Neko

-Andrea

-Pei Jung

-Carynn

-Liling

-Fern

-Yen Yi

-Uma

-Foebii

Christmas eve dinner, preparation!

Christmas eve dinner!!





Here are the preparation and all the deco's! more picures will be uploaded soon when the dinner ends! =)

Merry Christmas!!!

Hey peeps!! Merry Christmas , Joyeux Noel , メリークリスマス , Selamat Hari Natal , 圣诞节快乐!!! Yes! tomorrow is Christmas Eve and i barely did prepare anything for anyone except those who i care much!! Haha!! So my best friends and sister and some people who needs pressies will get them so wait till christmas you will know!!! My house has put up everything for christmas like a month ago and i didn't help much cause i was packing my room instead so yeah people!!

So, tomorrow i will be having relatives over at my place for dinner which i think its gonna be disaster cause to me they are weird , wayyyy weird so yeah i will be torchered tomorrow!!! I dont wanna die on christmas eve!! As if i will, of course NOT!!! So, GOOD LUCK FORM 3's results tomorrow so GOOD LUCK once again!!!

Nothing much for christmas but yeah getting my pressie next month and i will be obssessed with the gift for the rest of my life until i get something better and nicer!!! Christmas caroling don't think will be attending but christmas dinner is a yes and the youth celebration so see peeps soon!!!

BYE!!!

さよなら。

my day out with besties!

Hey i am now back with a post!

On wednesday, i went out with my besties Carmen and Suyesha . We went to Sunway Lagoon we started at 11 am - 530pm. I got sunburned! =( We played the slides and all we screamed our lungs out and do alot of stuff too!

We ate at captain jack and then continued our journey! We saw alot of hot guys and also couples too but the couples are damn annoying they are kissing and touching each other infront of the public its damnn disgusting man!

I took no photos cause its troublesome to bring the camera along and also we have lots to do and i was lazy too!!

But the lunch over their is damn expensive. a stupid chicken cheese burger with no sauce in it and a small pack of chips and a stupid small coke cause me like 15 bugs and its not niceee!! I hate it , wasted my money but who cares i get to spend time with my friends!!!!

* will be updating my second home and thats livejournal in a few seconds!!!