What really matters

Hi guys, this post will be something diffrent from what you have always seen from my other posts. This post is something about how I can live my life without questioning myself but still living each and every other day of mine as happy as ever with my friends and family.

There is something that I would like to share before talking about how I can live my life as happy as ever.
I remember in standard 6 to form 2 or even until now there is some people talking bad about me like my friends , best friends , family or even strangers. I felt so bad so i tried to prove them wrong and do everything so that i can please them and all but I realise I wasn't happy at all. In standard 6, I used to have 3 best friends and out of a sudden I just lost all 3 of them and everything of mine came into a stage that I was flashing back on what i have done to make me lose them and I just couldn't get the answer but I was happy cause at least there is someone who helped me throughout that period and that was PEICHING!! She was such a nice girl and she taught me how to pray to god althought I go to church. She and her family prayed for me and thank god that now everything came to and happy ending althought I don't contact them but I know that if I continue to look for an answer this won't help but it wound just make the wound worst. Thank god that he helped me to put this case to an end. When i was in F1 and F2 people just hated me cause I was being a "teachers pet" but I know i am doing the rite thing and this what a obedient student have to do and i never regreted after doing it.

So, the whole thing is about how people hated me, backstab me and how i lost my friends but I didn't regret what I have done because I have 3 best friends that helped me and brought me to a point that now where I, Natalie should be.

There is a few things I have learnt through this period and that is do not question yourself after what you have done and do let go your anger and your feelings when you have too , or even talk to the counsellor or the briefrenders team if you have too. Besides that, I also learnt how to think about other people more than myself and build a stronger inner life through the lifetime obstacles and look forward and don't ever look back at what you have done. Another thing is believe in yourself that you are stronger than you think you are and god is always with you!!

Besides, we are only humans nobody will know what will happen tommorrow or even in our future so don't look back and just look forward! put this in mind!! I also believe than love can be seen by the blind, can also be heard by the deaf and be spreaded by the mute.

So, start to love, live and appreciate everything, every place and everyone  START LIVING!!